And now... It's Time to Move Forward into the Sun!

There has been a great deal of transition in my life recently.  It has led to some major revelations and new perspectives.  I am a big believer in learning from other people's experiences, so I hope this blog entry may be some help and inspiration to some of you.

I have for several years been closely tied to a Wiccan group near my home.  I'm not Wiccan, nor have I ever been.  I'm actually more of an Earth-based Spiritualist, but this group was the closest I could find to my beliefs, so that's where I went.  I did my best to work with them, but I never really fit. Over time, my personal practices were no longer so acceptable there and it became one of many reasons I was slowly being pushed out.  All these reasons involved me trying to stay authentic to myself which kept me from fitting in.  One day I woke up and decided it was time to be fully authentic to myself and be happy.  So I left.  I have found a new home where I am free to follow my beliefs and practices and even teach them to others.  I found a place that feels like home.

As you can imagine, this was a deeply emotional process.  My entire life was tied up there.  Nearly my entire social circle and calendar consisted of this group of people.  I not only lost my life outside the house, but I lost "friends". Why did I put that in quotations?  The people I lost simply because I was going a different way were not true freinds.  A friend wants you to be happy.  The emotional trauma that came from this was from learning how many people had merely pretended to be friends.  I had never expected it to be so many.  The result is a good thing, however. The people who remained behind I KNOW are friends.  This situation is bringing us even closer.  It has also allowed me room to bring in things I have missed in my life but never had time for in my old life.  Not to mention plenty of new friends who like the true me.

I'm finally reading again as I wished.  I even plan on adding some book reviews to the blog in the near future. I have joined two book clubs.  Someone very special to me was sweet enough to get me an Amazon gift card for my birthday.  Nothing could have been better for a book addict who is just getting back to reading what they want! Even more importantly, I finally have the opportunity to start teaching again.  This has been my wish for a long time. I'm sure my teaching will bleed over to this blog as well.

By now you may be wondering what is the point of this blog on my recent changes.  The point is that no matter hard it is, it's not worth staying in a place where you aren't happy.  It's so easy to just go along and deal with it.  You learn to ignore the bad parts because you don't want to give it up for the unknown.  Slowly that dark cloud above your head gets darker and darker. When that little voice in your head tells you it's time for a drastic change, do it.  Close your eyes and take that step into the unknown. I know it's scary. I gave up nearly everything by doing it.  But that step away from the unhappy familiar allows you to recreate your life in a way that makes you happy to wake up every morning!

Remember this great truth - from destruction comes creation.  A garden must have the soil torn up while the remains of the garden before are mixed in if it is to grow.  A good house cannot be built on top of one that has rotten walls & a crumbling foundation. You must tear it down to rebuild a stronger home.  That is what you are doing if you leave an unhappy life. I hope all of you reading this are either truly happy in your life or you are making the changes necessary to find that happiness.  Step out of the shadow of that dark cloud and move forward into the sun!!