When You're Stuck in a Spider Web, Don't Fight It

My life has become infinitely more interesting these days. Drastic changes are on the horizon, and they won't be easy.  I admit I was resistant for a long time, but I've learned to stop fighting and things are flowing much smoother now.  If only I had learned that lesson a while ago...

Let's back up a bit.  I should probably explain that I am dedicated to Spider Grandmother.  This makes life a never-ending rollar coaster ride.  She is wonderful.  I love working with her, but she is not above giving me a cosmic smack to the back of the head.  Right now it's neither.  She has me firmly placed in her web and is not letting me move.  Of course, with her there is always a lesson.  Right now I am learning about patience.  The kind of patience that is necessary to allow the world to change around us into its proper alignment.  If I fight, then I get caught in the sticky gunk and things become a huge mess.  But if I just lie still, she gently wraps me in a cocoon to await the proper time for my re-emergence as my new self!  Right now my entire life is being reordered.  As strange as it feels, and as drastic as it will be, I finally feel like I'm on the right track.

Working with her I've learned so much about the connections between myself and others. It's truly amzing if you look hard enough.  You can actually follow a thread back, sometimes years, and understand all that you have done to lead up to a certain point in your life.  I've discovered that I've been heading to this current place for years.  Even relationships I've had that ended badly I can now see had a purpose.  Without them, I would never have ended up where I am.  It turns out that whole saying about people being in your life for a reason, a season, or a llifetime is true.  You just can't usually see it until later.  It can be quite a surprise!

First off, I've learned that if there is somone meant to be a permanant part of your life, nothing will change that.  A year ago I moved leaving behind the sister of my heart.  Not long after, she moved closer to where I went.  I never thought there we would live near each other again, but now we are planning her coming here to where I am.  Grandmother is happily manipulating her strand on the web and keeping ours twined togeather.  Not sure what all that means, but I'm sure she knows what she's doing.  I'm just happy this is what she has determined should be.  I miss my sister and will be thrilled to have her back.  This just proves that true family is of the heart, not the blood.

It's not always a happy ending unfortuantly.  I have a divorce behind me, but as horrible as it was, I am now able to look back and see it a neccessary part of my journey.  The relationship helped me grow in ways I needed to be who I am today.  I can only hope that my ex-husband can say the same.

Even moving back to my home town, something I resisted for 15 years, has turned into something good.  True, I do have the problems with my family still.  They will likely never accept that I'm "different".  But I have gained an entirely new family here.  A new mom and dad.  New sisters and brothers.  New aunts and uncles.  New nieces and nephews.  I've found the place I'm supposed to be, for reasons I never would have dreamed of.  I just had to let go and Let Grandmother Spider spin the strands of my web as She saw fit.

And so, the ultimate lesson is that everything happens as it's supposed to.  We might as well stop fighting it.  Good or bad, there is a reason, a purpose, a lesson for everything that happens.  We need to seek understanding for the way our path goes instead of complaining that it's not what we planned for.